I had a little scare this week--some light spotting Thursday night that resulted in an early, unscheduled ultrasound on Friday morning. The doctor said everything looked ok and confirmed the presence of a heartbeat. Such relief. I have a regular checkup and scheduled ultrasound this coming Friday and was assured that at this stage, the embryo grows so quickly that even one week will make a difference in terms of what we can see on the screen. This experience only confirmed it's best not to share too much until the first trimester is complete!
Really fatigued and only the last few days, rather queasy. I don't feel like eating much and when I do have an appetite, I can hardly stand the idea of vegetables. I'm too tired to prep them and the thought of eating them...well, makes me not want to eat at all. I'd been feeling a lot of guilt about this. I wanted to be "perfect" from day 1 in my pregnancy, of course, and drink tons of water and eat tons of vegetables and fruits and have this balanced exercise regimen...and my all-or-nothing thinking is creating misery yet again. I'm ready to chuck it to the curb and be realistic: eating a serving of fresh vegetables most days--perhaps in a salad, or a veggie frittata, or whatever--is better than nothing. It's fine. Fruit is easier to get down right now and do I really have to hate myself for not eating vegetables at every meal?
I've been taking walks and when this fatigue lets up a bit, I will slowly expand into other activities. I really wasn't anticipating this level of fatigue! Also, for some illogical reason, I didn't expect sore breasts or cramping to be an issue for me because they never have been before with my menstrual cycle. And now I'm uncomfortable due to both, every day. Not to sound too whiny; I'm actually happy! But looking forward to things getting a bit easier in the second trimester, like everyone promises they will.
I'm really sorry to hear about this scare, and I hope you won't worry too much about the food you eat. I think that force-feeding yourself things you don't want will make you eat more poorly in the long run. Also, pregnant women do tend to crave the nutrients they require.
ReplyDeleteMy very best to you and let's hope your pregnancy continues to proceed well.
Please, please, please put all ideas of perfection out of your head. I have two kids and let me assure you, if you try to be perfect, you will go stark, raving mad. We're living in a time where nothing a mom does is considered right (breastfeed/ don't breastfeed; stay home with them until they've finished high school/go back to work after a couple of weeks; home school/private school/public school, etc. etc.) Believe me: you can't win, so just do your best, love your kid and don't forget to take care of yourself!
ReplyDeleteI also agree with SFG. Eat what you can eat and follow your pregnant body's wisdom. Get lots of sleep and I repeat: take care of yourself!
Thank you both for your support. Sometimes I need reassurance that I'm not horrible for my dietary "sins" (and I'm not trying to be funny here--I mean it!).
DeleteNewMe: I've been thinking about this lately and here you've summed it up so perfectly ("if you try to be perfect, you will go stark, raving mad...we're living in a time where nothing a mom does is considered right...you can't win") Amen! You said it better than I ever could.