Lingerie, Body Image, Chinese takeout, Mindfulness, and Yoda

My lingerie arrived! And I really like it! Amazing how feminine you can feel by slipping out of a South Park t-shirt and into something sheer. Who would have guessed it? (Oh man, my poor husband. He has literally asked me to stop wearing a particular Cartman shirt around the house...) I think he's going to like the way I look in this thing, because I like it, and I'm certainly a harsher critic than he is.

I will be ordering from Hips and Curves again. I love the fact they use models of various sizes and many appear to have natural breasts (*gasp*, I know!). Their plus-size models look so glow-y and luscious that if I browse the site for awhile, then switch to another clothing or lingerie site with mainstream (very tall, very thin) models, those mainstream models suddenly appear less attractive to me than they would otherwise normally appear. It's so strange how rapidly a switch in perspective can happen. Images are powerful.

Not that I'm spewing that bullshit "real women have curves" line here. I despise those kinds of assertions, because the fact is that "real women" come in every kind of physical package. I think both these women are beautiful. But everyone's got preferences, and I personally find the thicker model smokin' hot...and I also personally find that looking at her makes me see the thinner model in a different light. What do you see?

Moving on...

I had Chinese takeout last night and did not enjoy it like I used to. The sauces are just too oily and sugary, and the so-called diet dishes on offer are gross to me. So except for the very occasional order of lo mein, I think I am over Chinese food. Yay! Recurrent cravings for orange chicken were a problem last year, so this is a good development.

Tonight, my husband requested the same chocolate mousse I made a few days ago. It turned out better this time, and I had problems with being mindful and moderate with it AGAIN. But at least I didn't make myself sick this time. It's still too early to be doing this stuff, and I'm going to have to say no to people's requests more often. Either that, or work on baking sanely and mindfully soon so I can get the hang of making stuff without harming myself.

My mindful mealtime habits need to be worked on, too. I have been focusing on them less the past week or so, and that's dangerous because they are not yet second nature to me. A long way to go, this Jedi has.

Wouldn't Yoda make an awesome weight loss coach? I'd take him over Jillian Michaels any day. Discuss amongst yourselves.