Thursday, June 13, 2013

Headaches, a screaming baby, and a sabotaging husband?

Yesterday was a reduced calorie day--my new term for those two days a week I greatly slash calories on my modified version of the 5:2 diet.

I'm still tweaking it into something that works for me.  Between 1 p.m. and 8 p.m. I ate two bananas, a cup of blueberries, and two meals of salmon and asparagus.  But my head started hurting around 6 p.m. and just got worse and worse with each passing hour.

Though fully aware that it was my "diet day", my husband ordered pizza, and then asked if I wanted to go out for cupcakes.  I said no.  So he proposed ice cream.  What the fuck, right?

I went to bed fairly grumpy at 10 p.m. and told myself I'd feel better in the morning.  Then the baby, who normally sleeps peacefully from 9 or 10 p.m. until about 8 in the morning, woke up SCREAMING and could not be comforted.  I could not figure out what was wrong, but I got her back to sleep after about 20 minutes.  An hour later it happened again!  Crying worse than before, and we could not get her to calm down.  We were actually a bit scared and I texted my mom, who's a nurse (and a mother of five).  We never did figure it out, but she eventually wore herself out and slept again.

That second time did me in.  I was on hour 6 of that damn headache and stressed and I went for the pizza.  Three slices of cheese pizza, a hot cocoa, and two Excedrin later, I felt physically better, albeit disappointed in blowing my plan at midnight, just as the day was coming to a close.

I don't think I drank enough water yesterday, simply because I wasn't tracking it.  And I waited until too late in the day to eat my first meal of fish and vegetables. Hence the headache.  Furthermore, I should have asked my husband to wait on the pizza and let him know that his ice cream and cupcake proposals were really bothering me.

I'd say he is sabotaging me, only...doesn't that usually start to happen once someone is visibly LOSING weight?  I'm not even there yet!  Seems too early for that sort of thing.  I think it's more an issue of him not taking my diet seriously, because he's never seen me embark on one in a serious, prolonged fashion.  Maybe he's testing me.  Whatever it is, I don't appreciate it.

While eating breakfast this morning, I realized I wasn't actually hungry and didn't need to be eating yet. I was still reacting to the night before.  That's one good thing about this 5:2 plan; it helps you see more clearly when you are overdoing it and eating for reasons other than hunger.  I don't always stop, but my awareness has been improved, and that's a start.

I'm doing another reduced day on Friday, and between smarter timing of meals, more water, and more assertiveness towards my husband, I hope I can avoid a headache and feel more resilient in the face of midnight baby screams or whatever else life has in store for me!


  1. I'm sorry - that's rough :( Sometimes people sabotage with even the mere THOUGHT that the partner will be successful. I can't imagine how hard it would be to have an unsupportive partner - I owe so much of my success losing and maintaining to my guy doing it WITH me and encouraging me to be better. I hope your husband can turn it around and see how loving it would be to support you now.

  2. Perhaps you should do a bit more reading about this intermittent fasting. It really doesn't seem to be agreeing with you and what with breastfeeding a young baby, I'm not so sure that it's that healthy.

    I'm sorry that I can't give you the reference, but I do recall reading that intermittent fasting is much better suited to men than to women.

    I don't want to be a downer. I know you're trying very hard, but please, your health is so much more than just seeing the numbers go down on the scale. In fact, nourishing yourself (and your baby) properly should be the only way you measure your health.

    Best of luck to you.

  3. Thanks for the comments, guys!

    NewMe--I've read that too, that guys do better with IF. Basically what this has evolved into is me eating salmon, green vegetables, and raw fruit to satiety two days a week. I don't count calories, but those are foods that I don't overeat simply because I don't enjoy them enough to eat them for pleasure's sake. (I don't dislike them, either--just feel neutral.)

    This tunes me into eating for hunger vs. other reasons and I'm betting it cuts a good number of calories each week. It also resets my perceptions of what constitutes a treat.

    I don't know what would have happened with breastfeeding had I really stuck to the 500 calorie protocol for several weeks; I was concerned about it too. But what I'm doing now seems fine for me and the baby.

    I appreciate the support! :)

    1. I should clarify--I eat to satiety and don't try to ignore hunger or keep the eating inside a particular window of time in the day like I was doing before. So I've been doing the fish/veggies thing for a bit now, but not forcing myself to go hungry for several hours is what is making the difference.